I don’t know. I mostly feel like a failure.
That’s not to say that I am not proud of Alison. It just means that I don’t know what to do and I feel like she feels like I have done something wrong.
So, here I sitting writing on a blog that no one reads because i haven’t told anyone about it, trying to work out my feelings in this existential crisis.
I worry about health issues, employment issues, about being driven away. What will happen when she ages out of our healthcare in a few years and doesn’t have healthcare that will pay for Crohn’s meds?
Do I back off, do I cling?
My hair is finally going gray which should make Tanya happy.