Am I Happy?

I think so. I have a wonderful wife and daughter. Admittedly, I am struggling to come to terms with the idea of having a daughter. I do know that I need her in my life and have to accept that this is not a decision that I get to make.

Do I worry about what others think? Too much, but less than i used to. The less i care about what others think the happier I am. That’s not to say, i should feel that way about everyone. I don’t.

I still weigh too much, but am getting in better shape. Lifting weights twice a week has improved my strength and my body image.

I am living in the house I want and in the town I want to live in.

We’re financially pretty secure.

So why do I want to roam? I think it’s just my nature. I have always been a loaner. I have always preferred my own company. I have always like to see and try new things. I think I will miss people. Notably Tanya and Alison. I will worry about my aged mother and dogs. I worry about whether I should wait until they are all gone before I roam a little, but don’t know if I can.

I think coming back in a year could mark a turning point in my work life as well. This just seems important.